My new job as a GM is not all that I dreamed it to be. I'm struggling to have a life apart from work. I was told before beginning that it's a lifestyle not a job. That's a very accurate statement.
A very close friend once described me as a gypsy. I laughed at that when she said it. I have since come to realize she was very close to nailing the real me. I don't like doing the same thing day in and day out. I hate it. I long for adventure. I long for new things; ideas, places, and people. Anyone know of a way to make a living doing that?
Part of me wants to go running away from my life at a breakneck speed. That other part is far to responsible to do that.
The biggest weight in my fleeing is that I'm in love with someone. And I don't want to leave him. He and my family are the two things I don't want to flee from.
I can feel myself wasting my life, but can't find what I could do to NOT be wasting my life.
God draw near to me and show me where it was that I screwed everything up. At one time I knew without a doubt that I was in the center of Your will and now I'm looking around and I know I'm not there in that place anymore. I know that You've continued to show favor on my life and work despite the that I'm not where I need to be. I thank You for that! i miss You. help me.
No comments:
Post a Comment