Things

I feel really weird today. I've felt like this for a few weeks now, and I still don't understand my problem. I look around me and it seems like everybody else's lives are moving forward. Mine just seems to be sitting still. I'm no closer to graduating College. I'm no closer to getting married. I'm no closer to having a real job. And all the while people I know are leaving JSU. I look around me and it's a different group of people that surround me. I don't know how to get out of this state of being. I don't feel that I have wasted any of my time on this earth, but at the same time I don't feel like I've gotten anywhere. I'm going all these places but I'm not getting anywhere. Should that matter? What am I supposed to be learning from all this. Am I being led astray and I don't know it? Or is this feeling what's leading me astray?

Pray.

~stella