If you've ever read my blog before you know that this is where I tend to do some of my deepest thinking. I think that's mostly because I see it as a place to work through some of the things going on in my head. Yes, I have friends, but I tend to do more listening than talking. I'm a thinker. I'm a talker to, but deep stuff doesn't always find it's way into conversations. I've been doing a lot of adjusting in my life lately. I'm finally allowing myself to make mistakes. That might sound crazy to some, but when you hold yourself (unknowingly) to a perfect standard it doesn't live you much room to live your life. Step one was discovering that 98% of the time I would not even try to do something unless I could do it perfectly. You can't get anything done like that. Perfect conditions are only in your head. It took my aunt pointing out that I tend to do this, for me to really see how often I was doing it. My love life was a prime example. I didn't date anyone for just over 7 years, because I couldn't find anyone that met those perfect standards. Go figure! The first perfect man was the last and He was crucified on a cross. I've finally allowed myself to date someone, and I'm finally happy. I've discover that dealing with the American public is way to stressful for me. I'm looking forward to starting my career in costuming. I'll only have to deal with actors then. I'll possibly be going to a theatre in VA this summer. I'll miss Willamstown but it'll be another adventure for me. In March I'm jumping the big pond and going to see Robert and some other friends in Britain. I can't wait!!! Well, I guess that's all for now. I hope everyone's doing good, and ya'll find a new beginning! Love you all!
~Stella
